It is very easy to feel in love with God when you feel in love with a person.
It is not so easy to feel in love with God, or even enormously loved by God, when you feel rejected by a person. Or persons. Or many people. 3 at least.
I have the knowledge that Jesus loves [...]
Archive for the ‘things that make me sad’ Category
Are you there God? It’s me, Mari.
Posted in God, beauty, memory, music, relationships, things that make me sad on June 6, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Dealing with Dorks
Posted in things that make me sad on March 21, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
“I think it’s great that you’re going to Guatemala to learn their language. I just can’t figure out why they don’t learn our language when they come here. You know what irritates me? When I see ATMs with an option for Spanish. What’s next? Options for every language?”
This “what’s next” argument is the most horrific [...]
Una Tragedia de Cuaresma
Posted in Chicago, baklava, coffee, melodramatic, things that make me sad on February 17, 2008 | 3 Comments »
Here’s a sob story for you. I spent this day, the second Sunday of Lent, in preparation to gorge myself on what I suspect to be God’s second physical incarnation: banana-nutella crepes at the intimidatingly posh Cafe Neo. I reluctantly gave up sweets for Lent (which I complain a lot about, but is honestly much [...]
Someone still loves you, Boris Yeltsin.
Posted in Chicago, Europe, memory, things that make me sad on February 10, 2008 | 1 Comment »
On Valentine’s Day I’m going to see “Step Up 2 the Streets.” Hopefully with BFF, if he’s game.
That’s the main thing I have to say.
The other stuff isn’t as important.
Although, Jean-Michel Basquiat is very important. I learned about him at the DuSable Museum of African-American History. They have a kickin’ gift shop.
(the bomb)
It is important that I [...]
The air around me vibrates with so many images. Which is great, because most of them are British.
Posted in baklava, movies, relationships, things that make me sad on January 27, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I hurt B so much. So so much. The kind of hurt that makes you so dizzy that you start thinking horrible ideas are wonderful ideas. The kind of hurt that is so bad that you are inspired send hate mail. And leave angry messages. And propose marriage. You’re just too hurt to even know [...]
Perhaps I have too many things on the wall above my desk. Perhaps not enough?
Posted in Europe, beauty, self-indulgence, things that make me sad on January 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
1. A photograph from 1917 of young blind children petting an elephant, visiting their Chicago school from the Ringling Brothers Circus
2. A beautiful collage wishing me a happy Thanksgiving, from G.G. Flint, sister of my roommate
3. (sticky note):
Josh Ritter
PO Box 9751
Moscow, ID 83843
4. (sticky note):
February 15
(the day I will feel better, and ask if B [...]
Five Letters Received on Friday
Posted in growing up, letter-writing, relationships, things that make me sad on January 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
1. “For instance, if you come at four in the afternoon, I’ll begin to be happy by three.”
2. “I’m having fun eating lots of maple syrup and looking for moose sightings.”
3. “In approaching the end of college, many of us will be guided by the abstracted future more than by a rootedness in the past.”
4. [...]
The Birthing Pains of the Renaissance
Posted in Europe, history, melodramatic, things that make me sad on January 14, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
History has repeated itself many times in spawning a new period of creative industry and intellectual novelties: the Creativity sperm finds the Crisis egg, and together they produce a Renaissance zygote. It’s true. The greatest renaissance in history, so great that it is dubbed “THE RENAISSANCE,” came right out of a time and place whose [...]
An Oddity
Posted in relationships, self-indulgence, things that make me sad on January 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The funny thing about the losing a thing, is that the loss of something makes the nothing even more of a something than the something ever was to begin with. If something has become, in a way, a part of you, insofar as you became quite close to it in a certain fashion, the loss [...]
Being 21 is a difficult thing
Posted in God, growing up, relationships, things that make me sad on December 20, 2007 | 1 Comment »
Growing up is very hard. Whenever I realize I’m not as kind, patient, or perpetually grateful as I hope to be, via an argument or fit of immature rage due to some tiny upset to my day, I feel brutally betrayed by my own idealization of myself. I wonder if the person I’m becoming is [...]
