It is very easy to feel in love with God when you feel in love with a person.
It is not so easy to feel in love with God, or even enormously loved by God, when you feel rejected by a person. Or persons. Or many people. 3 at least.
I have the knowledge that Jesus loves [...]
Archive for the ‘relationships’ Category
Are you there God? It’s me, Mari.
Posted in God, beauty, memory, music, relationships, things that make me sad on June 6, 2008 | 1 Comment »
The air around me vibrates with so many images. Which is great, because most of them are British.
Posted in baklava, movies, relationships, things that make me sad on January 27, 2008 | 3 Comments »
I hurt B so much. So so much. The kind of hurt that makes you so dizzy that you start thinking horrible ideas are wonderful ideas. The kind of hurt that is so bad that you are inspired send hate mail. And leave angry messages. And propose marriage. You’re just too hurt to even know [...]
A Meditation on St. Arbucks
Posted in coffee, music, relationships, romance, work on January 20, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Prescript: Lately, the evenings seem to make me depressed and ergo write very long and boring posts about all the things above my desks, with an occasional self-pitying detail thrown in. There is no one who is remotely interested in this nonsense. I guess I am still operating in the mode of a week ago, [...]
Five Letters Received on Friday
Posted in growing up, letter-writing, relationships, things that make me sad on January 19, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
1. “For instance, if you come at four in the afternoon, I’ll begin to be happy by three.”
2. “I’m having fun eating lots of maple syrup and looking for moose sightings.”
3. “In approaching the end of college, many of us will be guided by the abstracted future more than by a rootedness in the past.”
4. [...]
An Oddity
Posted in relationships, self-indulgence, things that make me sad on January 9, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
The funny thing about the losing a thing, is that the loss of something makes the nothing even more of a something than the something ever was to begin with. If something has become, in a way, a part of you, insofar as you became quite close to it in a certain fashion, the loss [...]
Being 21 is a difficult thing
Posted in God, growing up, relationships, things that make me sad on December 20, 2007 | 1 Comment »
Growing up is very hard. Whenever I realize I’m not as kind, patient, or perpetually grateful as I hope to be, via an argument or fit of immature rage due to some tiny upset to my day, I feel brutally betrayed by my own idealization of myself. I wonder if the person I’m becoming is [...]
A Demand for Honesty (and men who read “Details”)
Posted in hipsters, poetry, relationships, romance on December 17, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
Out with the precious gems of films, poems, and books who see life through such a thick veil of post-irony that they cannot handle their own honesty! I won’t pretend I didn’t like “The Darjeeling Limited” and “Juno,” but enough with the genre that can only be described as “quirky and heartwarming!” Out with male screenwriters [...]
Observations of a Feeling
Posted in melodramatic, memory, relationships, things that make me sad on December 14, 2007 | Leave a Comment »
As Joe described it, I can imagine it similar to the phantom pains experienced by someone who has lost a limb. The limb can still feel as though it pulsates, functions, and hurts. There must be something there because the memory is so sharp, so when you find that it is indeed not there, it [...]
